Thursday, January 13, 2011Y
Sadness... tears...
January 4 2011, 5:26pm. we broke up. after all the waiting i did. the lonely nights i spent. that's all what i got from him. (wow this sounds like poetry). well, its how life goes. time flies and you need to let go of someone. today is already January 13 2011. 9 days since the break up. i have the feeling i will need to be alone for a long long time. he's just too cruel. i gave him everything but i guess it wasn't enough. too much for the long distance relationship, huh? he's probably got another girl now. that's what basically what guys do right? get a girl, play with their feelings for a while, and hop on to the next one. seriosuly. i hate guys like that. daikirai. i wish he could've just said to me goodbye properly... i was waiting so patiently... so faithfully... i guess i was asking too much...
January 4 2011
Me: are you _______? we need to talk about JD ~Sarah
Him: no. im not gonna talk to you.
apparently, that's it... we're over. it was that easy for him. i wish i could tell him that... that he's the only thing thats on my mind... the only thing i prayed for besides my family. the only thing... i ever wanted that badly... but then bothering him would make him hate me... i somehow just cant let go of him... maybe im stupid. expecting him to love me as much as i do... its all stupid
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Monday, October 11, 2010Y
貴重な雌犬は、私および私のボーイフレンドを放っておく。 私達は私達の方法で平和な関係がそう喜ぶ得ないほしいと思う。 これは私達の学校にいる女の子のためである。
To bunny:彼のお母さんは私を憎む! :(
彼の母は私を憎む :( 私は私するべきであるものが知らない。 それは私達の関係に対してのように、皆あるある。 しかし私達はそれを心配する必要はない。 愛はすべてを征服する。 私はちょうど彼女が私に会った後彼の多くが私をこと多く憎まないことを望む。 私はまた彼の兄弟が追随的憎むこと感じを有している。私は彼の親が私を好まないことちょうど悲しい。 私の母は彼とうまくある。 私がいかに望むか事は私達のためによりよく回る>_< どうかして、これはさせる彼のための私の愛に感じを恐ろしく重要である。 私は問題を起こしたいと思わないが、彼を愛する。しかし私は私が強いことを決定した。 私達二人のために強くおよび私達の関係のために強いです。 私は彼の親が厳密であるので彼が私の誕生日にそれを作ることができないこと悲しい。私は強い。 彼がであるもののようちょうど。 彼が私達の愛のために戦おうとすれば私達は一緒に戦おうと思っている。 すべての確率に対して。
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Chapther 31: Aijin
PSLE is over :) yes I'm finally free! LOL... though last night... i discovered something...
me: are you going for the SB practice tomorrow
him: who are you
me: JD...
him: this is his mom. im sorry but you can sms him now
and i was like.... blank 0_0
it was actually Mr. SM who was typing for his mom =.="
then Mr. SM told me something
"The ring... She threw it away outside the window. then GD went down and he found it after searching for about 2 hrs..."
After reading that i was like.... "Baka!"
then i realised... do i really mean that much to him? lol maybe >_<
=.=" but anyway... i was kind of... touched... LOL i dont really know what's the exact word for the feeling but.... yeah... Aishiteru Anata! :)
so yeah... i dont think we can ever SMS again... ... AGAIN... hell! that's gonna be tough...
.......... :( oh well... i'll see him in school then :)
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PSLE!!!
5 more days before the PSLE!!! oh my gosh!!!!! :O And 10 more days before my perverted brother(louie) leaves for Taiwan :( I'll miss that guy...(as a friend.NOTHING MORE THAN THAT) Lol. anyways, I'm really worried about my math exam... If I don't pass, oppa said he'll kill me :(. But if he doesnt pass English, I'll murder him :P lol XD to all PSLE candidates, Ganbate!!!!!!! ^_^
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Saturday, August 14, 2010Y
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!
AISHITERU !!!
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Chapter 30: arigatou!!!
i was sooooooo blessed yesterday and today :) its been really good... i love it! especially today! :) cant really say why... lol but yeah i was just blessed... though there's some parts of the days when i received bad news =.="
thank you so much! 私は今愛することの疑いを有しない ^_^
Aishiteru!!
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Thursday, August 12, 2010Y
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010Y
WE ARE IN LOVE ...
Haven't you heard?
HOW WE ROCK EACH OTHERS'
WORLD!!!
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Chapter 29: Hangin' out with Bom & Chaerin=)
HAHAHAHa. went to bommie's house today to do homework =)
At least i have less homeworks to do XD anyways i would like to thank bommie for letting me have some yummy food =) THANK YOU!
And we found out Chaerin's secret!!! *drum rolls*
Bitting styrofoam cups! XD LOL.... <3 ya chaerin!
we had so much fun especially when... someone smsed XD
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 28: Anime!
I went to Douby Ghaut today and i was surprised that they were holding an Anime Cosplay event there! i saw a person cosplaying Mio(One of my favourite anime characters from K-on!) and i was so happy(i dont know why) i saw her and called out her name... then she smiled at me.... but i wasn't contented XD... i looked for her and took a pic with her! it was so fun seing all people that loves animes just like me gathered in a place =) it was so cool!!!
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 27: A day out
i went out Yesterday with bommie and chin to IMM. man was it fun! i can't tell you what i did there because Bommie would probably Scold me. XD
Anyways, I've been Missing my friends lately... i miss talking to them or scolding them or just... looking at them...
I wonder how is everyone's holidays going so far... I wish they're all healthy by the time the school re-opens <3
I really miss texting my friends <3 (i cant because my phone ran out of prepaid =.=")
Hope my dear readers have a joyous and wonderful holidays!
well as for my school mates, STAY OUT OF TROUBLE
the school wouldnt want anyy reports from the police XD
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 26: Learning On the field!
we had our learning journey at Sungei Buloh Nature Reserve. i love the trip but Me & Chaerin miss somebody XD It was so fun but we didn't get to take pics during the journey =.=" It was tiring but fun! i love nature! oh yeah!
Love,
Dara//Misaki
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Chapter 25: Excitement!!!!
Im so excited!!! on tuesday we will have a trip. excursion on sungei buloh!!!
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Chapter 24: Field Trip!!!!
we had our prefect field trip yesterday... SO FUN!!!! >_<
i was so interested on how they made the animations :) :) :)
especially "finding nemo" and "monsters inc."
it sure brings some memories ^_^
it was so fun but the thing is that we couldn't take pics cause we're not allowed to :(
(if you notice, i'm keeping my entries short... i understan some of you dont like reading long entries XD :)
Love,
Dara//Misaki
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Chapter 23: Butterfly/goodbyes/hi
i had a white butterfly land on my head the other day :) last night, it went inside my room again :) ***i swear im not lying***
by the way, i said "goodbye" to seung H. but said "hi" again after a few days... dunno why =.="
last friday, bom,CL,miley, selena, me and a few others went up to queens condo rooftop :) it was fun... :) :)
Love,
Dara_J
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Chapter 22: Change
firstly, i would like to thank my new onee-chans:
Sharafikah
Rena Soon
Amirah
Hannah
Liyana
thank you so much for being there for me ^_^
my teacher talked to me before our P.E. lessons.... it was rather a sad conversation...and ms tan asked us to work out ......and we we're like.... my body aches!!! XD
I MUST WORK HARDER!!!!! kekekeke =P
there's so much change happening now a days for me... I must adjust and be more mature... I feel coldness when Im talking to him(its the feelings that i dont feel like talking anymore). etc. there's so many things changing... i wonder if i can catch up and not be left behind... ha ha ha... i feel alone, sad and almost invisible to most of them (the people i know and him)
oh, and i love the cold weather no a days :)) its so cool!!!
people who made me happy this past few days:
rena
sharafikah
liyana
P.S. i hope you will recover from your fever soon liyana!!! ^_^
Love,
Dara
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010Y
Chapter 21: Finally
I finaly confessed to him that i like him.... :S
i would like to thank liyana and bommie for supporting me always when i needed help =P
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K-On! - Animal Mascot
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Chapter 20: LOL!!! XD
today was funny! Sim jun Kiat made me laugh alot by acting like the chicken in K-on(my fav girl band anime).... the video is above at 0:39 XD
Love,
Dara
people who made me happy today:
1#) Jun Kiat
2#) Rena
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Chapter 19: Boredom
Me2day XP:
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Im on the glove mood today!!! kekekeke =P
today was so boring.... but i still havent finish my math homeowrk! 0_o.. I'll do it later XD or maybe tomorrow... (Shockz)! i really have nothing to write as it is a boring day... but i dont know why my heart beats really fast in some points of the day when im thinking about nothing... maybe its a sign i must do my homework.... that sux...
Love,
Dara
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Saturday, April 10, 2010Y
Chapter 19: Bad Luck
Me2day XP:
two days in a row of bad luck... first was in the mrt station.... having a nose bleed in the morning.... then followed by a message from bommie saying CL can't go to school... certified BAD LUCK. the 2nd day was yesterday... the hell some one said i like someone (which i dont) and that thing made me really pissed >_<... still angry at that person now but not as much as yesterday...
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 18: First time & party!!!!
Me2Day XP:
today was so fun ^_^ it was my first time being in a nail spa XD thank you hannah for giving me the chance... it was uncomfortable as someone else is touching you feet 0_o.... i had so much fun though.... and i love the goodie bag!!! <3 love ya sis hannah XP the orange colour didn't fit my skin tone so i needed to choose the light pink one.... which i thought was kawaii!!! <3 <3 thanks again sis!!! after that me and bommie went to her house to "do homework" but then we realised we didn't have much time and i needed to go home.... it was totally fun today =P
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 17: SOMETHING USUAL
1.4.10 11:43
whoa!!! school holiday later... 15+ more minutes 0_0... kekeke =P
I'll let you down today.... i didn't post any pic today XD ... its abit normal today... except for something... only bommie knows XD
people who made me happy today XD :
#1)SuShi
#2)Chaerin Lee <3
#3)Bommie!!!
#4)CYL
Love,
Dara
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010Y
Chapter 16: Forgetful sisters
Me2day XP:
31.3.10 6:35p.m.
Today was rather boring... but then... Ms de cruz said that Im not really that focused now adays =( so i must work hard and do all my best =) ... school finished at 1.00 pm today(as usual during Wednesdays). And hooray for not having SBC or ACESIS ^_^! <3 <3
but the thing is that, after i finished clearing up the library corner(it was really dusty and i really hate seeing that that way), i forgot all about my homework... Math homework... Me and Bom chat and luckily, she remind me about the math excercise book (phew)=.=” so i went back with her to school and took the book... damn, was i running fast to reach school XP. After that, i didn’t want to go home first as my brother’s friends are here and they’re so loud.... so i decided to stay with bommie to the so called “roof top” of a building in queens condo... man, was queens condo so cool!!! I wish i could stay there =P... we talked about *ahem *ahem and discussed the math question (trust me, after doing one question, we felt so much bored)... this post shows that we must remember to bring our homework with us before making our way out of the school XD
Love<3,
DARA
(P.S. Happy Birthday dearest Hannah =P!!!)
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Chapter 15: Hagnin' out
Hang out with bom unnie today (woot!) kekeke XD... it was okay.... we went to the library to eat and to talk about *ahem *ahem ... and then we went home... but of course... we took one pic just to post here XD
Love,
Dara
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Chapter 15: Never ending Friendship
After my post last night... i felt really bad... and i read it last night again... i thought i was drunk as i was writting crap... NO ONE CAN DESTROY J.E.M.S and this time, im writting this post after i washed my face to make sure im not drunk.
yes, we are back again... CHEERS! but this time, we'll socialize with other people to make more friends... Cheers again!! kekeke Love ya sisters! i brought JEMS together again coz i felt it was such a waste to forget a freiendship that was the most important to me since we met... I love ya sisters!!!!!!!!
Love ^_^,
dara
people who made me happy today:
Bom Unnie
CYL (for saying "jesus loves you) he think i think no one likes me
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Saturday, March 27, 2010Y
Chapter 14: Sayonara, Jems
to my dear readers, you know that i have a group of friends called JEMS... some of you might be happy to hear this but... i think i would or will quit JEMS. its hard to say... but Bom, thanks for being there for me always... Chaerin Lee! my sis whom i never fight with for the past 3 years, i really appreaciate our friendship... and lastly, to dear Minji, who always gets scolding from me XD i love you sisters but then... i cant stay in JEMS with thoughts in mind... I will still treat JEMS as before... but i will socialize with other people more this time... i dont know if Bommie will allow me to do this....
Bommie, i know you dont mean to be "close" to seung hyun but i just thinks he likes you... and dont blame me if one day i'll say "i hate you" we will and forever will be sisters but you and seung hyun suffocates me too much... i know you dont mean it but its just something that i believe in, strongly...
well, we will still be friends as 21JEMS but the difference is that this time, i can express myself more to all of you... Thank you so much for being there for me >_<
Love,
Dara
P.S. i did not quit because of seung hyun...
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Chapter 13: Duty!!!
so far, this was the biggest duty the prefect board has ever conducted trough out the term... The P5/P6 meet the parents dialogue session... It was tough arranging the prefects... TOO MANY PARENTS CAME AT ONE TIME!!!! whoa... i wanted to die =.="
it was fun though... running here and there... LOLS...
**readers of my blog:
i think you know that Seung Hyun is in our school right?...
i saw him today... and that part wasn't fun... hello??!! im trying to forget someone here.... and come to think of it, i think he likes Bom.... XD hahaha.... it was tiring but its better than nothing =P
Love,
Dara
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Wednesday, March 24, 2010Y
[Verbal Acoustics]
Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada
I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
If I could say what I wanna say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanna see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
(What is)What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
(I stutter)I stutter (I stumble)I stumble like I've got nothing to say
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
[Verbal Acoustics]
Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada
Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada
I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never Say...........
~Avril
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Chapter 12: Heartbreaks
yeah... it is Seung Hyun... it hurts doesn't it... when you like someone and you feel that that person likes you too but he/she doesn't.... but stuff like that happens because maybe of god... maybe he wants us to wake up in reality that this person we like now are not the "right one" for us... im still sad though.... anyways... im happy that Yui is back to shool... she didn't come last time... oh well.... I need to concentrate on my studies...
Love,
Dara
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Thursday, March 18, 2010Y
The Only Exception - Paramore
When I was younger I saw my daddy cry And curse at the wind He broke his own heart And I watched As he tried to reassemble it And my momma swore that She would never let herself forget And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love If it does not exist But darling, You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception Maybe I know, somewhere Deep in my soul That love never lasts And we've got to find other ways To make it alone Keep a straight face And I've always lived like this Keeping a comfortable, distance And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm Content with loneliness Because none of it was ever worth the risk Well, You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception I've got a tight grip on reality But I can't Let go of what's in front of me here I know you're leaving In the morning, when you wake up Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream Ohh--- You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception And I'm on my way to believing Oh, And I'm on my way to believing
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When you fall in love you, nothing can change the way you feel
Your heart pumps like mad but you feel nothing but love
You feel full up and you don't even realise you haven't eaten
You can't sleep for thinking about them
You can't concentrate for thinking about them
And when you're with them?
You can hardly breathe for being close to them.
And knowing how good you could be
When they make you happy
You want to cry
When they make you sad
You want them to be there when you cry.
When you feel your heart is breaking, nothing will take that feeling away.
Your heart pumps like mad but you feel nothing but grief
You feel full up but you know you can't and haven't eaten anything in days
You don't even want to sleep
Not even if you're completely exhausted.
You can't concentrate knowing they are no longer yours
And if you see them?
You can hardly breathe for being close to them
And knowing what was meant to be has gone
You think of when they made you happy
You want to cry
You think of how you are now
And you want them to be there when you cry. ~Anonymous
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010Y
Chapter 11: Dreams
Last night, I had a horrible dream... i dreamt that i can't stay in the standard stream as i failed my maths... they said that i should go to foundation which is not an option to me and my family. so as soon as my parents heard the news, they asked me to go back straight away to the Philippines... without telling my 2ne1 jems sisters or even say goodbye to Seung Hyun... no one knew... and then the plane that i was riding on was going to have a crash landing when i heard my phone ring and i woke up... Phew, luckily it was just a dream... I'll study harder... i dont want to go to foundation... :(Love,DaraP.S. its not that i forgot but there's no one making me feel happy so far....
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Chapter 10: Change
YES! its finally the holidays! but it really doesn't fell like holidays as we still have homework.... Come on! for what crap does people call it holidays when we have work to do?? Well.... welcome to the life of being a Primary 6 child.... CRAP.... well... as you can see... my sisters and i agreed that i changed a lot.... from a girl that like black and swears a lot to a girl that likes colourful light things and feels disgusted easily.... i feel... changed.... Bom said its because of "him".... oh... and lately, i heard that it is so obvious that him and another girl like each other so i wont get in the way of that... but im still waiting for "him" waiting doesnt mean i'll dedicate my life to him... i'll just.... continue with the way i feel and focus more on my studies... Life is hard, eh? XD thats all for today.Love,Dara
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Chapter 9: Miss Him!
I hate it! i felt suddenly like i miss someone... especially when i hear some songs from a particular singer.... >_< i hate it!
i envy those who can go for holidays! i want to go too! but i need to do somethings here so... i need to take the torture of having classes even during the holidays
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